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Masquerade of a Dead Life.

Sorting out some recent thoughts…

It is amazing the way a person can become so sure to you, how they can seem like they can be relied on for one small thing and still let you  down so harshly. I learned a long time ago how crushing it can be when someone you admire falls so hard and far from the pedestal you have put them on, but what I didn’t count on was the complete coldness and disregard a person can have for the values that keep family strong. It is one thing to disappoint another person it is another thing to aid in the destruction of family.

What an experience it is to see such a desperate attempt to keep certain “skeletons” from escaping the closet of a masquerade of a life. The broken attempts of hiding behind false pretense while in reality being the horrible victim of senseless acts of sins against you is just a pitiful and frightening reality for so many people. Unfortunately it can become a reality so big that in the end it affects not only you, but can affect generations to follow in ways that are devastating. All because you don’t want or can’t face what people might say or think of you even though what happened was not your fault. Sin when hidden becomes an insidious guest even when that sin has been done against you and you are not the one who has committed it. Typically when sinned against anger then unforgiveness then bitterness takes root in the hurt. The hard thing is that we have every right to be hurt and angry, but the key after that is to not sin in our hurt and anger. I know how hard it is to be hurt and angry and then have to deal with a child while wrestling with those feelings towards someone else, I have on numerous occasions snapped at them or yelled at them when they had nothing to do with my pain at all, but being so consumed by my pain, I overlooked what it might do to them to react in a way that will confuse and hurt them. Thus the cycle can continue and inevitably does in this fallen world. I have personally tried to make it a point to apologize to my children when I have done this and have when necessary attempted to explain to them some lesson of human nature and the mercy of God and His love.

What is remarkable to me in this is how the extent of someone else’s sin can cause us to sin against the innocent or those who are not the cause of the pain. Either way we are not to sin, in reaction to the person sinning against us or in reaction to those not involved. I can say that this is a very difficult ideal to grasp, I believe and know it, and I fail in it so many times. How I was shown this by God’s mercy, was in wondering about the resurrection and it’s importance in the life of one who believes. The refrain of the gospel is that we can be saved from our sin, it is beautiful to know this, however it is incomplete, because so many do not understand their own sin, and stand in judgement of others sins and the sins that they have been the victims of. Sometimes a person does not see the depravity of there own sin and only looks at the sin and suffering around them and wonders about how so much bad can happen. Christ died for my sin, your sin, and every individual’s sin. It becomes our responsibility to accept that gift of salvation from our sin. What happened after His death is three days later he arose from the dead, we all know that right? But see he didn’t go in the ground for three days, in those three days he conquered death forever and rose victorious over sin and death so that we may experience the same freedom and victory over sin and death because of our salvation through him. And that means sin. Period. Any sin that has been committed against us. Period. Any experience of death. Period.

In the light of His great salvation all of this has no hold on any believer, ever, unless the believer chooses to hold on to it, either in their ignorance to this or in their inability to fully grasp this victory. I have a hard time fully grasping the truth of this especially in moments of pain, and unfortunately pain doesn’t just go away in knowing this. What it does do though is it gives me hope in pain and joy in the hurt, that I do not have to remain imprisoned to someone else’s sins against me or others. It helps me to know that God has conquered it all and he is the only conqueror, and only through his salvation can I be more than a conqueror even though I have experienced the pain and hurt and horror of being sinned against.

Realize that sin is a work of Satan himself and that every person has the choice to sin or not. Do not deceive yourself about sin there is no small sin that we can commit as in letting our words hurt people or laziness or being false, and do not allow yourself to be deceived into the belief that there are sins that are too great for God’s power as in rape or murder or molestation. God’s power abolishes sin, God’s power heals our souls from sins, God’s power gives us peace in this sin stricken world. In pressing on towards wholeness in body, spirit and mind; this truth has been a balm for me, it has put my mind at ease even though the feelings of hurt and anger remain, it has helped me to sort through the mess that is life on this planet and it has helped me understand the pain that others face in there own lives. I hope it allows me to see healing in the lives of those I love and I hope that maybe it causes others curiosity to seek out this truth for them self.

Going Forward with Obstacles

“God has nothing worth having that is easily gained”-  Streams in the Desert Devotional– June 29

 

It is easy in the face of obstacles to give up and take the easy path, whether that is convenience food or procrastination or snapping back at someone in anger or abandoning a difficult relationship. The hard way is painful and misunderstood, even if it appears that the easy way is being taken. I am happy to be standing in the Hope of God and that he is my everything, literally. He took my earthly security away, and gave me an invisible future that I cannot see but for his promises to me. I think I am misunderstood for the fact that I had to do something very drastic in my life to secure the health and well being of those closest to me, it had to be done, to save a soul, to save minds from more damage, and to save the completeness of something God has ordained. Nothing good has ever come from hiding behind false pretenses, especially when multiple opportunities have been given for private resolution of the issues faced. God put these words before me as I was facing the blackest moments in this recent dilemma:

 

Psalm 27:13-14 (amp) [What, what would have become of me] had I not believed that I would see the Lord’s goodness in the land of the living! Wait and hope for and expect the Lord; be brave and of good courage and let your heart be stout and enduring. Yes, wait for and hope for and expect the Lord.

 

Psalm 138:3,7-8 (KJV) In the day when I cried thou answeredst me, and strengthenedst me with strength in my soul. Though I walk in the midst of trouble, thou wilt revive me: thou shalt stretch forth thine hand against the wrath of mine enemies, and thy right hand shall save me. The LORD will perfect that which concerneth me: thy mercy, O LORD, endureth for ever: forsake not the works of thine own hands.

 

Isaiah 41:10 Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness.

 

It was like a cool fresh breeze, filling my suffocating lungs, a piercing light through the darkness, though still blind to the future it is the brightness of his promises that are blinding me now to what my future holds. I am so happy to know that I have no need to defend my position but that God is my defense. No person can stand against me in thought, action, or words. The greatest of all is he told me he would perfect what concerns me, PERFECT, can you beat that? I have made more mistakes in my journey than I can count, but, I know I make them and will likely make more; But I have claimed Christ and his righteousness for myself because without it I am destitute in the horrors of my sin. I can stand in Him knowing that my mistakes and failures will only prove to glorify Him much more in the end, so I can have no claims to having done anything in my own strength. This is the beautiful way of openness and transparency, it proves God’s greatness in the end, it proves that he uses weak, broken vessels to carry his glory so he can shine through the shattered shards of brokenness. A crushed flower, pours out more fragrance. Coal under pressure produces a diamond.

A Journey of a Thousand Miles, Begins with One Step

I am so sick of food, the food that has been the staple of my diet for years. I have been sick of it for years, too, it never seems to appeal to me. I have recently found out why. The food I have been eating is useless, devitalized, processed chemicals, and refined sugar laden cardboard. I have always tried to eat healthy, but mostly it never satisfied me. I have been on diets and basically felt starved and never able to keep them up. So, when I read Nourishing Traditions By: Sally Fallon, I was SO excited to find out that not only could you eat good, real food, but that in doing so it would make you healthy, not just physically but mentally, too!!!

The setback for me however was the radically different preparation techniques and difficult(more so than stopping at the grocery) to obtain ingredients. However, I am determined that I am no longer going to be enslaved to the junk that they call food anymore. I have been overwhelmed trying to figure out how to begin, and I finally just decided it can’t be done all at once, but then when I looked I couldn’t find any resources on where to start step by step so I am going to record it here for others like me who want to do something about it but don’t know where to begin or are too overwhelmed, as step by step and simplified as possible. This is where I am at right now:

I have been reading a lot

  • Have an open mind and be informed, buy the book- Nourishing Traditions: The Cookbook that Challenges Politically Correct Nutrition and the Diet Dictocrats. By: Sally Fallon. I bought mine off Amazon.com for around $18 in April and finished reading the whole thing about two weeks ago. It blew me away.

I found a local support group

  • Check out the Weston A. Price Foundation website. On this site you will be able to find a foundation chapter in your area, these chapters are a wealth of information for finding real food locally. This site also has numerous articles of information about food and health, siting hundreds of scientific studies. I found my local chapter was around the corner from my house. It got me so motivated to have a resource so close by!!!

I am starting to weed out the junk food and replace it with real food

  • Buy Organic fruits and vegetables, I just started doing this. We have a huge garden that we will be getting a lot of our produce from, too.
  • The fastest way to provide nutrient rich food for your family: Find farm fresh, raw milk and eggs from a local farmer in your area who can provide it for you if at all possible. I found a place near me that I can get some and am just waiting until the budget allows me to go ahead and make it happen. The way it works here is you usually will purchase either a cow share or herd share, I am getting mine as a herd share for $50 dollars (lifetime, some places may do yearly) then after that I pay $22 per month for a gallon per week. If I need more milk per week it [the prices] are double or tripled for subsequent gallons. So the cost for 3 gallons per week would turn out to be $150 one time fee and then $66 per month. Expensive yes but worth it in the end, when you don’t have to pay the cost of medical bills for umpteen illnesses down the road.

I am and have (for the sake of necessity a lot of times) been working on decreasing my dependence on and trust in the institutionalized establishments of the systems of this world, as in:  industrialized food, the medical monopoly, the propaganda media machine, education, government, the green myth, and misled/ misfed church flocks.

  • I have for a long time had an interest in Herbal remedies, and have found many things that have worked for me and others I know, (for various ailments over and above what the medical community had done for them and myself). I being among the uninsured have found it necessary to rely on this more so than on medicine, not just due to financial constraints but also due to the fact that I had an ER visit for an urinary tract infection a few years ago that ended up costing me $1300, which reoccurred a month later and I ended up clearing it by taking probiotics and drinking profuse amounts of water, cranberry juice, cranberry tea and nettle tea, among other situations similar to this, I have chosen personally to avoid being treated for minor ailments, and may even go as far as to say that if a major ailment afflicted me I would rather fall upon the mercy of God than trust the medical community with my treatment. Some great sources for Herbal information can be found at the Bulk Herb Store they also sell very informative books including Nourishing Traditions.
  • Test the cultural, societal, and world climate- have a plan in mind for your future, where you will go, what you will need, how you will handle it. Being prepared is wise whether due to natural disaster, or terrorist attack. In the past ten years there have been huge and horrible disasters in a very short period of time, just this year in the U.S. there were 600 tornadoes in the month of April when typically there are only 150, there is a horrible drought in many states and record forest fires are ravaging Arizona. Check out this site here for other interesting information on disasters.
  • Buy local, and when I say local, I mean local- meaning if you have a neighbor three houses down that makes rugs and you need a rug, well put 2 and 2 together. Not only are you supporting your local economy, you are taking money away from the big whigs who are lining there pockets on the backs of children in foreign countries, you may be helping a family make ends meet, what is in the rug is probably better for you than what is in the rugs at the store, you will likely appreciate it more because it will cost more, and being handmade the quality is likely going to be better and therefore it will last longer.

I have a 15 minute philosophy, and though I don’t live up to it the way I want sometime it is a life saver for me

  • In housekeeping it can keep you so on top of things, check out the Flylady website and set you timer.
  • If you are anxious or worried about something take 15 minutes and pray about it and then set it aside and let God handle it. If you cannot handle it in 15 minutes then do the next thing.
  • Time-wasters like that book that you cannot put down or the TV, or internet, or whatever. Set you timer and do what you have been putting off.
  • When you start something on the timer, you will be surprised when it goes off by how much you have gotten done and how much more you WANT to keep doing, it is an awesome motivator.

I am trying to stay centered

  • Read God’s Word
  • Pray
  • Memorize and/ or meditate on something God has shown you from His Word.

This is something I have been meditating on:

“Make it your ambition to lead a quiet life, to mind your own business and to work with your hands, just as we told you, so that your daily life may win the respect of outsiders and so that you will not be dependent on anybody.” – 1 Thessalonians 4:12

 

I am planning to post once or twice a week (as time allows) specifically on these subjects and to take the next steps on this journey, I am hoping you will join me as I do so, I hope that it helps you and me to take the steps needed for a more fulfilling, productive, and peaceful life. And if you are already there, I am hoping you will join me and encourage and pray for those of us who aren’t, as we undertake this journey together.